understand

after a busy period for other pple's happiness, i seem to understand wats "越快乐　越堕落"..

NUA-ed the whole day away.. heavy tots running thru me sometimes.. other times, juz sheer retardation force to start on something kept me well tucked under my super comfortable quilt..

will i get tat kinda treatment / effort i offer to pple for their special day on my special day? or even juz in simple daily routines?? simply put, wats in it for me at the end of the day?!

if its juz for reciprocity, den wats the meaning in it??

worse, wat if other pple take u for granted, and tink nothing of it?!

things tat u take the extra mile to plan, to do, MIGHT JUZ HIT u twice as hard, on the back..



simple?! yar rite..

mayb its exam stress..

mayb its the last few days in DTU..

mayb its the last phase of exchange programme..

mayb its the uncertainty for upcoming travels..

mayb its the homesickness..

mayb its juz me..

but, i certainly dun feel rite abt myself..

i am feeling kinda trapped..

feeling the lack of personal space..

feeling very daze..

feeling pretty lost..

feeling abit emo..

feeling like SHIT..

juz dowan to do anything..

wonder if anyone understand me..

cos i dun fully understand myself!

welcome to EMO-land..

PS dis is publised after everyone embark on SEP trip liao.. so by the time my SEPmates read it, its a thing of the past, and NOT really worth mentioning to them anymore.. hurhur..