hey, dun tink tat toking cock is a waste of time!!
well, it MIGHT provide one with a new meaning in his / her life, or trigger some great thoughts..
for example, John Nash actually came up with the all-overwhelming Game Theory thru' pubbing n a brief encounter with how to pick up girls, with u having the highest chance of getting the hottest girl by seqencing how, why, wat shd ur competitors' actions are.. well, in the end, he gave up his hot girl to formulate n document the theory.. *wat a waste* he could hav picked up the girl, AND thereafter do his nobel-winning work..
well, abit of disgression.. i was toking abt "toking cock".. yar.. thru chit chats with other pple, u discover brand new perspective of how to look at things n generate / assimilate into ur own tots..
today, thru the tok cock session (which seems like everyday activity, but today esp different) with sumone, there was an impetus to tink "wat i really want in life".. am i living wat i wanna b, wat i am GONNA b, or JUZ living it thru, AIMLESSLY?!?!
i wanna do dis, n do tat, but, does it complement to the ultimate goal in life?! alot of pple, including me, want ENJOYMENT.. a word so easily spoken of, but so little understood of it..
wat is enjoyment?? wat does it entail?? how do u get it, n does getting it = wat i want in the end?? wat if i get enjoyment, n it turns out to be sumthing tat shd hav been a BY-PRODUCT instead of the ultimate goal?! would i hav compromised on my ultimate goal in life?! so wat is my ultimate goal?!?!
*lost* but i seriously dun c myself as a chemical engineer, climbing thru chimneys, or designing enormous plants for the most efficient conversion of petrolchemical substances into the much-sought perfumes or lipsticks..
BUT i'm in class 1B, a great environment tat enjoyment is easily found with the friendly n nice pple i noe.. a class in chem eng course in nus.. a course designed to create chem engineers.. am i suited to b here, with a CAP much lower den those muggers *!@#$%^&*.. but if i am to b sumwhere, will i find my by-product N get my ultimate goal as well??
is there too much to lose, or too much tat i would hav missed out out there?!?!
hav i planned correctly, or hav i let fate took over me n decide my outcome?! hav i done enough to compensate for the lost opportunity n pursue wat i really wanted (which i can vaguely remember / wanted as time passes)..
while i continue tinking, C, tok cock is beneficial!!!
go, TOK COCK!!!
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not just the tok cok but i can totally understand how u feel. is this really what we'd planned or are we mere puppets of chance/fate/society whatever bigger entity we'd like to call it? are there really answers?
i'd like to think of my being as autonomous ie. everything in my life as a product of my decisions and actions alone, but that's clearly not the case. neither is it the case that i'm just a stuffed toy in the hands of a controller (hehe atc) cos clearly i think therefore i exist.
which is why i came up with this little analogy of a fish in a river. u're probably a lot better in touch than me in vectors, but clearly wherever the fish swims is dependent on the current flow of the river, the fish being in the river. he doesn't have total control n neither does the river. rather it's a complex interaction between fish and river. (which just in this case we can resolve via vectors)
would we really know where the fish wants to swim to by observing him? i guess we won't. we wouldn't know cos we're not the fish. he could be aimlessly letting the current sweep him away, or struggling against the current with all his life. but that, only the fish would know.
clearly i'm toking cok here, and really i'm just as lost as what u wrote about. i don't see a clear direction to swim towards, so there really isn't motivation for me to go against the current. right now i _am_ really just being swept along. trying as much as i can to cherish the whole experience of it. but along the way, if one day i _do_ happen to find sth, u betcha i'll swim to it like there's no tomorrow. :)
yea ok that's enough toking cok for the day. :P
"an unexamined life is not worth living" -- socrates
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